Dear Blog.

I am bored out of my frickin mind. That is all.

Another day, Another soul.

I'm pretty sure that everytime I go to sunday tutor, The little kid inside me dies a little. 7 hours of friggin tutor. AND RAWR! I cant get rid of my freakin stubble!

Sigh

Frankly I'm quite tired of people thinking they know exactly what I'm going to do next, or what they think is me acting weird. I despise people who make assumptions about others, no matter right or wrong. So just a little heads up, If you think I'm acting weird and looking all tired, Its just that. I am freaking tired from sleeping late and waking up early. Don't read to deeply into it as most likely you'll be wrong, and I'll be pissed because one of you guys decide to keep calling me emo for wanting to go to sleep. As of now Sunday, monday and wednesdays are my sorry but if "I dont feel like talking I'll ignore you" days just because I have to get up early. Fridays I'm high because Saturday is a relaxation day and I cant wait. Thursday is alright cause it seems like such a short day, Sunday I'm freakin tired from 7 hours of tutor. So yea thats my week in a nutshell. Usually I'll try to be in a good mood though so disregard that and talk to me if you want. Just beware if I complain and brush you off.... I dont really mean it.

Ugh

Bloody cramps killing me -.-

Anyhoo did a huge favor for a friend today :P hope he knows he owes me BIG time ^.^

Sigh I couldn't bloody tell 24 hour time today. Apparently in my head 1300 hours is 2 in the afternoon. Fail 4U math student much?

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So much pain.... So much blood...... I dont know how much longer I can take......

A clock ticks ominously in the distance. How long have I been in here? Maybe half an hour or so. Half an hour and I'm already writhing in pain. Clutching onto the chair for morale to keep still. Any slight movement could cause dire pain. Drills to the right of me, Sharp pointy metal objects on the left. The light above me shines so bright I start to perspire. A flash of red. Soon sucked away by the never ending drain of a tube before me. I let out a stuffled scream afraid to let anyone hear me. The odd sound echoed off the concrete walls. No matter how much I screamed it didn't seem like anyone was going to hear me. There's so much blood. The pain throbs in my mind, body and soul as I try to numb it out. The ticking gets louder as I start to lose control of my bodily functions. I gag from the smell of the place. Immediately a sharp pick digs itself into my mouth. A single tear falls as I stifle the pain. Screaming from pain would probably only give them pleasure. Pleasure in hearing me suffer, pleasure in seeing me struggle to keep awake, struggle to get out alive. My chair moves to sit me straight up and everything moves away. "All done! Sonny remember to check back in 3 months for another cleaning." I freakin hate the dentist.

Yawn!

Most peaceful day ever today. No shit happened, nothing to piss me off. Everything was just right ^^. So yea 21/2/09 = best day so far.

Awesomeness

Currently listening to: "All the things she said" by Tatu

This was my dinner ahaha ^^. Yea its like almost all yellow, but if you look closely you can see a red sliver of meat. And this thing was so loaded with chicken salt, normal salt, and chinese pepper + whatever my mum stuff into these dumplings and I'm feeling kind of high... My mum was super nice though. She made these after she thought I was getting really stressed out from school and she was partly right. So she made 17 boxes of these... Yea I like to eat these alot. 17 boxes of these... In a single day. each one has approximately 15 ish, which is around 255 dumplings in a single DAY that she made. The egg is just something random I chucked in, and this tasted so nice... Its like... Having your cake and eating it... least thats how I think the motto goes... Anyway till next time hope you are well and have a great dinner (hopefully doesnt make you bloated.

I just don't get it anymore.

I just can't deny the simple truth anymore. The people who I should be closest to in the entire world don't know me as well as most of my best friends do. I feel bad admitting it but it's true. As one of those people has proved today. It has gotten to a point where subconsciously I am relying on my friends to bring me through the day rather than my family. The past year and a half has not yielded a single thing, and no-one seems to have noticed. With this I can't help but think how much do I know about them and how much do they know about me? No this does not mean little anecdotes like when I run into glass/wooden doors. Its about my patterns, my speech, and ultimately my actions. I do not mean to justify the way that i have been acting for the past few weeks. Nor do I mean to seek your pity. I simply mean to try and help you understand that while you will forever be close to me, there are others that have somehow managed to get closer. I honestly thought that you were the one that knew me best. The one who could see behind the smiles and nervous laughter, The one that could make me feel better in an instant, The one who would help me through the ups & downs. Evidently you are not any of those things.

-.-

Today was a miraculously shithole day. It's like people were deliberately trying to piss me off today. When I say something, I do not expect to repeat it so many times that I feel like stabbing myself just to make you not say either "Are you sure that that doesn't do this?" or "Are you sure you can do that?" First things first, If I have something on "display" that was given to me by someone I really care about, and it looks delicate. It stands to reason that if someone I didn't know picked it up, ruined the way it was standing, and then continued to ask a single question that seemed so infuriating to me when I replied the same answer a total of three times, then two more for the road would be ripped apart to little shreds. If it was someone I knew, then most they would get is a very very annoyed blog entry.

The question was "Is that little box a speaker?"

Answer : "No it isn't. It is just to accompany that display."

2nd question : "yea but does it work?"

Answer : "No it is just to accompany that display and it doesnt work."

3rd question : "So what is that little box?"

Answer : "its plastic and meant to look like a speaker for the display"

4th : "For all I know it could work. Are you sure it doesnt?"

Seriously there are sometimes where I just want to scream so loud that dead people will hear me and say "whats your problem?"
I really want to just carry a bunch of "I'm stupid" signs with me. Then everyone can know. I mean you'll be like "'scuse me do you know where......Oh sorry didnt see your sign carry on."

Think about it. "Do you know whats wrong with the product?" "Yes I know whats wrong with it. I just decided to come to a professional who I'm paying money to just to say the same thing. Heres your sign."

Like if its spread over the course of a few day I dont mind. 5 in less than 50 seconds is so much I feel like I just made an oral english speech. So yea. Upsetting the things I treasure most is a great way to make an arch enemy.

Tired...

Ahaha I am so tired my keyboard feels like a squishy pillow. lucky the keys arent sticking to my face though haha. My tiny die cast figuring of Wall-E (not the dad below) is staring intently into my webcam. XD yea I like cutesy stuff (non anime/manga/perverted stuff thanks) Just more along the lines of kittens and stuff like Wall-e.

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Just watched disaster movie. Wants two hours of my life back.

Harrys -.-

Well I just sat through 7 hours of mind numbing pain. 2 hours of english tutor, then 1 hr rest, then 5 straight hours of math. Naturally people got bored I got hyped up on sugar having eaten 300% of my recommended daily sugar intake and maybe more cause I dunno how much sugar is in a custard hokkaido bun, or a chocolate croissant, or the lipton green teas. I crashed so hard though soon as I got home haha, My friend seemed so bored that he made a figurine of Wall-Es dad. yea thats what that pictures meant to be. I do find it rather cute though.

2 + 2 = 5

That title has nothing to do with anything. Few days ago I got new bed sheets! that sounds really really boring........but it has cows on it ^^. Yea I can hear it now. "omfg how old are you sonny?"

You know....

This might sound so random.... but there is just so much I wanna do now. I wanna start a video blog, wanna somehow get Obama's apparently wonderful speeches, wanna write a song, stop the annoying mosquito noise in my room when I plug in my hard drive, get around to reading the 867 unread messages in my inbox, take more photos, lrn2play stuff, message more people, get to know more people and get to know the people I know already abit more. Its like for the past 4 years I've been living underneath a rock. and not a rock like Patrick Star's one which is hollowed out, more like a flat rock pushing me into the earth so I couldn't hear anything. In fact I think I'll start with the song.... Err dont bug me about it before I finish pls :P and as I am a TERRIBLE musician (I failed at the recorder) there'll be like almost no music, so basically its just a bunch of lyrics. More on this as I develop or maybe less as I give up.

w/e w/e

Remember Remember the 5th of november.... Yea I just watched V for Vendetta and I thought it was a great movie. So great I'm going to read the book. Kind of pointless now that I know the story but I want to know the story from my own perspective. Also on the list to watch is Edward Scissor hands, Speed Racer, and the Dark Knight again. I've seen Edward and Batman already but I just want to rewatch them. Bought the Curious George movie soundtrack. It sounds really really lame but some songs are pretty good haha. Check out talk of the town by Jack Johnson.

Rawr.

As you may have noticed I'm getting abit lazy to name my posts. I just couldn't think of a good name for this. Maybe "I did something really stupid BUT I've come out richer than I have before" ... Sounds like I won the lottery haha. Heh. This arvo it was boiling hot and all I could think about was how lucky I was to be there. Like right there in that moment. And right now about 4 of my friends will be chucking a spazz saying "seriously dude whats wrong?" But nothing IS wrong. I just felt kind of.... great.

People

One person really really pissed me off today. His name starts with an R has 5 letters and he plays hockey with us every Wednesday. This guy isn't a smoker, nor does he graffiti..I think... But I wonder what goes through his bloody mind when he's not kidding. Firstly changing teams when your side is losing is pretty much a douchebaggy thing to do. Specially when its a single point. And then pretending he's on the other side when they are about to score is another douchebaggy thing to do. In the end, I want to punch this guy in the face. His arguments make no sense at all to anyone, he endangers those near him and frankly (as you can see I am fairly well into the pissed region of my brain) I want to see him swing his own stick into his own face, or see a ball hit really fast bounce up and hit him in the face. The whole *I'm changing sides because you guys suck* then *I'm changing again because we're about to score* really aggravates me. Heh no paragraphs. Thats one long rant about one guy.

Yea I pretty much hate this guy. Call me slack if you will but anyone who leaves because the going gets tough and joins when the group hits ez street is non-existent in my books.

Friends...

I am so grateful for all my friends.... You guys are there when I'm down there when I'm...up? and always there in my time of need. You guys know who you are. I just wanna say thanks for being there when it mattered most & I'll be willing to do the same 4 u whenever you need me. Hope that everyone had a great holiday and I wish everyone a new happy beginning.

Hey Hey!

Guess what! ITS THE 25TH OF JANUARY! YOU KNOW WHAT THAT MEANS?!?!?!?! Its almost time to start the mind numbing pain that is school........sigh... 8 more months... I gots my back to school stuff ready already -.- Twas a very long walk of about an hour in the blistering heat that survives in the hole of Liverpool. Oh sorry did I say hole? Yea I think Liverpool is a hole now -.-
I mean who knew that something I----------I that far on the map could last an hour long walk? Anyhoo the nightmare is almost over.... But I'll be updating alot more since pretty soon I'll be aggravated by so many things in the city that the chick from the ring will look like a fluffy cute teddy bear next to me.